I remain on the leaf i have turned,
My body aching, waiting, yearning for the night.
Do I have the strength to overcome this feeling again,
Should i find out?

I dodged the strong grasp of my past,
My soul has been weakened, my strength gone,
Is it better than I remember?

I have made a decision to return to my ways,
A cloudy version of truth, trembles my mind.
This aura of darkness has returned to corrupt,
Why must I return to my problems?

No more shall I hide I accept the darkness, no,
I require it, I can not control it and I can not escape.

the first time i met him he was a jerk
his friendship was lurking for a way out
he cannot eat peanut butter
but he helps me with all my clutter

and if i leave
then and only then
i will realize how special you really are

He acts innocent, but he is not, that is a fact
I want him to get caught in the act
He just might
It is well worth a fight

It is wrong to do
It is wrong to say
I hate him
I tried to get him away

But, the sickening insanity was driving me insane
I had nothing to gain
I felt humiliated
I wanted to die
No one believed me
They thought it was a lie.

Ironically, he hated yellow
He thought this girl was hot
She did not

He had a friend named stripes
They always fought
Stripes liked this girl to
The poor girl had no clue what to do
They hissed and yelled
She tossed and turned
Couldn’t sleep at night

She hated them both
She wishes he was dead
One day she got so sick of it
Grabbed a blade and pressed it against her throat
She cried as blood rocketed out of her skin

And then blew her head

She had a knife that would dig in her skin
A sigh of relief as blood comes gushing out
All on the floor and in the sink
Now she makes no sound
Why?

She hated her life
She never found the cure for her obsession over blood, death and guts
Now she makes no sound
Why?

It wasn’t right
It wasn’t safe

No one ever told her it’s the wrong way
She saw it on T.V and tried it
Now she makes no sound
Why?

This was no way to pay
Her brother had nothing better to do than make fun of her defects
She hated her life
Blades constantly was sandwiched with in her skin
When she was frustrated
Now she makes no sound
Why?

She cuts herself where no one would care to look
She makes life for people around her extremely difficult
She hated her life
Now she makes no sound
Why?

She was raped and called a liar
Her dad brutally beated her and expected her to be perfect
Now she makes no sound
Why?

If only he knew
She was set up for failure
If only he knew, she hated her life
Now she makes no sound
Why?She is underground